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[bjornwilde]

I have no brain this morning, so I am pulling from the suggestion box. Today's comes from aberration :

Do you get character bleed (feeling the emotions/thoughts/etc. of your characters)? If so, have you had any particularly weird or interesting instances of it?

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[holdingacat]

No real bleed from Cecil, other than the thought at times that he'd really dig what's going on at a particular moment... so maybe I should try to appreciate the moment too.

That, and giggling about being very into science, and oh noes wheat and wheat byproducts.

Oh, and wanting to sing 'Roar' at the Citibank automated phone system -it sounds like Fay.

[bjornwilde]

I'd say I get a lot of emotional bleed, which is why I need to be careful of the pups I play. If the canon is too depressing, I just avoid interacting with the character, even if I love them and the canon.

I used to get a lot of bleed over when I played Ben Grimm and was actively exercising. He was a good internal motivator to keep me on track.

Can't think of much else, though Sabine is not helpful in my being thrifty when art supplies are around.

[cottoncandypink]

I think writing so many OOMs about going to the gym is what shamed me into going to get a membership for myself.

Every now and then, a news story comes up and a part of me says, "I'm angry! Wilford should be angry too!" and then I remember he's too busy poking Bigfoot with a sharp stick, and doesn't care about all the crap going on in the real world.

[shinyhappygoth]

Mostly only while actively threading. I have cried during intense plots with Enzo (haven't had any of that sort for ages, though), but I don't recall any real spillover afterwards.

[i_am_your_host]

I've had a very strong emotional connection to Cabaret for a very long time, having RP'ed the Master of Ceremonies for almost 10 years I think (maybe more? my memory is shot), including the years spent in another game. So yeah, I've had lots of intense moments both in threads and OOMs. And like, whenever I stop by Club Cumming, Alan's actual bar and cabaret, I would imagine how Emcee would feel in that setting. It's life imitating art.

I didn't think Cassidy would put too much of a strain on my emotions, but as his TV canon progresses he experiences and does some deep, traumatic shit that I am eager to explore. What can I say, I'm a sucker for feeling all the feels.

[holdingacat]

Have I mentioned today I'm so jealous re: Alan Cumming? So much. :D

[i_am_your_host]

Bahaha did I mention I sang onstage at Club Cumming to live piano accompaniment on my birthday because that is a thing that I did

not that I sang WELL or anything but still EVERYONE WAS SO NICE ABOUT IT

[holdingacat]

... That's it, if I'm ever back in NYC, I'm calling you.

[i_am_your_host]

Please do! For reals! I love taking friends there!

[holdingacat]

It might be a while - I'm on the wrong coast, and I don't have a lot of excuses to get over there. Maybe if I find a good work conference on the East Coast next year... *plots*

[have_no_mercy]

I used to, a lot, but I don't really anymore. I don't know if I chalk that up to more experience, or if I'm losing my emotional centre.

[golden_lyre]

^^^

This is why I've had such a hard time with Orpheus lately.

I get it some with my other characters too (not looking forward to the tumult of Alec and Magnus's relationship), but Orpheus has been around for a while now, so it's worse with him.

The sad moments feel like character bleed, the happy moments sort of just feel like fangirl squee.

[for_everyone]

I actually submitted this because I now have a weird, very specific character bleed story from a little over a year ago. TW for talking about being closeted.

So until somewhat recently, I was living and working in a situation where I had to be closeted nearly all the time. I could be out to a few people, but to most if I was asked whether I had a boyfriend, or anything like that, I lied. There was this big part of my life I had to be careful not to mention, or that I had to actively lie about. And I knew what I was getting into, but it could also feel awful, to have to lie to and assume the worst of people I cared about. But there were real, serious potential loss of job/safety issues involved, and I didn't feel willing to risk that.

Anyway, more than a year into this, there was a week where I had repeated, vivid dreams about being outed. It was every night during this week, over and over, despite that I'd never had dreams about this before and was pretty used to my situation by then. And I thought it was really weird, until it hit me that this week was also when I had read the Kanan comics, in which he suddenly has this huge secret about his life that he had to constantly hide, that people he'd cared about and worked alongside suddenly, violently hated him for.

So, uh, yeah! That was my weirdest, and probably clearest case of character bleed. I do also sometimes get a level of emotional bleed, though I think more often I get happy/sad/terrified on their behalf and they're way more chill than I am.

[i_am_your_host]

Thank you for sharing <3

Funny how the universes sync up like that.

[aberration]

Thanks for reading <3